Life has been stressful lately. Not run-of-the-mill stressful. Piled on, layered, and smooshed down like a panini.
Fortunately, I am not an oak. I usually bend and blow with the wind like the grass. I try to not to get too upset most of the time, but I admit, I cry when it’s too much and/or I vent to family and friends when I need to. Then, I just move on.
This time, I didn’t. I wallowed in it. I let it wash over me. I bathed in it. I was consumed by it.
Work, health issues, possibly moving, homeschooling, car breakdowns (both cars), misunderstandings with friends, blah, blah, blah. It was a lot. I couldn’t even write. I don’t sleep well anyway, but now it was completely impossible – even with medication from my doctor. I’ll tell you something, people – lack of sleep will take a crappy situation and turn it into a living hell.
And I can tell you something now that I’m on the other side of it – I quit.
1. I quit most of my work to focus on my kids and our homeschool blog and books. I love doing websites and social media work, but dealing with clients all day and night wears you out after a while. People are stressful, yo.
2. I quit worrying about my family. We put our house up for sale just to see what would happen. We’d been toying with the idea for two years – not because we wanted to move – we did NOT. We have the best neighborhood on the planet. It was just that hubby’s commute was stealing precious time away from our family, and we all hated it. Then we got an offer. We all cried. Like got in bed, pulled the covers over our heads, and boo-hooed for an entire day cried.
Needless to say, we aren’t moving. We don’t have to – God showed up and blessed us in a big way. Hubby will now work from home with his new job and we are beyond grateful and ecstatic! AND since we aren’t moving, we can get new cars! Yay for God!
3. I quit giving a crap what other people think. I mean, REALLY quit caring. I’m doing the best I can at everything I do. I live my life the way I think I’m meant to live it. If you don’t like it, bye-bye. I don’t have the time or energy to waste on you, so I won’t. I can’t afford for the space in my head to be consumed with thoughts about other people’s opinion of me.
4. I quit listening to people who only want to bring other people down. Don’t do that. It’s annoying, depressing, and makes you look like a schmuck. Be nice, or shut up already.
5. I quit whining and complaining. I don’t let my kids do it, so I need to shut the heck up. No one wants to hear it and no one really cares about it anyway – I know I don’t. Vent all you want, but then it’s over. Either get over it, solve it, or get out of the situation that you’re in. Do I sound heartless? I’m not. I really care a lot about people. A LOT. I will help anyone, but if there is a solution to your “problem” and you won’t help yourself by solving it…I’m done.
6. I quit being available to everyone 24/7. I love my friends. I love my family. BUT, I HAVE to have time to myself. I HAVE to have time with just my kids. I HAVE to have time with just my hubby. It makes me better, which makes me a better person to have around when I AM around you. My thoughts are clearer and I’m not rushed. I’m calmer. I’m more focused.
7. I quit being scared. I’m not scared to fail, I’m not scared to die, and I’m not scared to be myself. I was scared that I would let someone down and that kind of fear can be paralyzing. I’m not scared of that anymore. To let someone else’s expectations of you determine what you’re going to do and how much crap you’re going to take is just, well….dumb.
I do have some major things coming up, and believe me, when the time comes for me to share those things, I will need your support. I have no problem asking for help. I have no problem asking for advice. I have no problem being real.
I quit being fake a long time ago, and when I did, I became me.
What I’ve learned the past couple of months is this:
When you pray for miracles, when you pray for guidance, and God’s answer is to quit, YOU QUIT.
And then you start over, leaving your old ways behind you.
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